Wow

Today is my last full day in St. Charles, Mo. I leave for college either later tonight or early tomorrow morning. It's kind of surreal really. I don't know what to feel. I think I'm doing the right thing as far as leaving the state to go to school, but a lot of people I'm close too, who are all conveniently now seniors in high school, still live here. Man. I just don't have any words to explain it. Today was also black and gold day up at my "old" high school. That's where all the fall sports teams get together and they basically have a parade and what-not. It was always fun when I went. I went up there today and as I said before it was just all so weird knowing that they were still going to that school and that I wasn't apart of it anymore. It was all pretty strange. As I made my rounds to everyone, saying 'goodbye' to them I didn't really feel sad or distraught. Some people would act like they were going to cry, some people would tell me good luck, I think one girl actually did cry. And during that whole time I just had on my smile and just laughed at them. But as I left the stadium and started to walk to my car, it was the first time in a while where I really felt alone. I basically was doing this by myself. going into a new world. To put it simply, I was scared. I drove home and all i could think about was how unreal everything was and that I could very well not talk to some of my friends for the rest of my life. But I found one song to kind of describe how I was feeling at the time and how I still feel. But overall, I would have to say that today was in fact a good day....